Today was a trying day. My 3yo is down with conjunctivitis and what I suspect is a sinus infection, we went to the doctors, got some eye medication and I have not been able to apply the ointment for him at all. Think wrestle mania’s caged match then multiply that by intense frustration. It has just been a long, tiring day. Have you had one before? The sort that saps your soul, dries it up and brings you to the end of yourself? Those are the days you take out that white flag you keep inside the “emergency- break glass” casing of your heart. You break the glass and surrender. Well, that IS the point- coming to an end of ourselves. Somedays we feel superhuman but somedays we are reminded that we are ONLY human. It is humbling. It calls to mind these verses in the bible:
Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn’t get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan’s angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn’t think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
– 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 As long as we try to bear the weight alone, we collapse.